OFF THE RECORD.....

Sad Face!

2012-02-13T19:19:00.001+08:00

I look weak ! I have floating eyes.. I have crossed eyes like Rita Rudaini :( .my lips shape is like the letter M and it goes down like this :( . See.. I was birn with a sad face ! Some people come to me n ask wether im sick or not? Do i look like im sick? Do i look pale? I need to wear more makeup then :( . . Btw, i dont feel really well today. I couldnt eat much because i have gastricts :( . Its hard to breath but i have strong spirit ! Luckily i didnt faint in the class just now even though i think i almost did :( . Im actually pretty sure that i have a heart problem. It beats fast and that is not normal. I want to see the doctor but..im afraid of being scolded :( . The last time i check, i have been told that i have amnesia :( . And they want me to go back for a complete checkup since my menses is also not normal ! It might have something to do with servical cancer! Im afraid ~ what if the doctor was right? Yerrrr... I will make sure to keep on living and drink a lot of MonaVie! Pray for my health! :(

Kucing

2012-02-11T08:03:00.001+08:00

U know, i always want to adopt a kitten :) .but...i travel every week :( . I miss hugging n kissing a cat.

The malay chronicles

2012-02-10T19:22:00.001+08:00

Take a look at this girl. She has a photogenic face! Seriously! What a pretty face for a 13 year old girl. U rock the red lips bebeh~ she is our sepanduk holder :)

Marching

2012-02-10T06:56:00.001+08:00

Marching band for my school sports day. Errr.. This team is quite lazy in practicing so winning is far from my view. We didnt expect to win btw :P .to be honest,im so not in the mood of seeing them training :P . Why? Because theres only 21 of them who joined...it is supposed to be 35! So its a waste . What to do, im not fierce enough to force any of them to join this marching..i hate forcing . So, school sports day end today. Im gonna upload some pictures later on. Till the, see u soon ~

Pregnant

2012-02-08T09:02:00.001+08:00

I am not! Not that im not ready . Not that i dont want too. I admit that im a bit scared when thinking about delivering a baby. Well who doesnt? Mengejan taik pun payah :P , inikan lg branak? Deiii. The thing is, our location. Im working in KM, n mr tweety is currently in sarawak, to be pregnant is just not right. I mean, im alone here. If anything happens to me, naaa... Plus, he doesnt want his baby to grow up without him . Lets wait another year shall we?

OFF THE RECORD.....: hihihi

2012-02-08T01:04:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOD!

and this one too!

baby, i know u always read my blog .

i saw that u bookmarked my page on your chrome!

take a look at this video xD !

we were young~we were free~

hahahahaha

---->OFF THE RECORD.....: hihihi

OFF THE RECORD.....: is it for real this time?

2012-02-08T01:00:00.000+08:00

i cant believe that i ever wrote this xD ! hahah! it comes true! read it <3 OFF THE RECORD.....: is it for real this time?

Hair

2012-02-07T20:19:00.001+08:00

Potong sebab boring
Jd? Cannot?

Spring cleaning!

2012-02-07T00:55:00.001+08:00

Im playing with Ekee while cleaning the house! Yeayy!look at our pictures! We did some stunts! Hihihi. Owrity~need to continue cleaning the house!

Hair

2012-02-04T10:34:00.001+08:00

I cut my hair!

my red lips moment~

2012-02-02T07:17:00.000+08:00

i have never wear any red on my lips.

so i've tried it last night n found out that with some editing :P , i could actually wear red!

haha! :PPP

oooh~

Kucing

2012-02-01T11:20:00.001+08:00

Btl ka ni kucing pandai panggil duit?

Ceria.

2012-01-31T01:47:00.001+08:00

I love my working space. Will keep it clean everyday . Less stress org bilang ;) . It makes me happy. ( im going to miss this place when im leaving anytime soon) . Leaving? Me? Not so soon. When? Only God knows. Jia you!

Busted

2012-01-29T10:10:00.001+08:00

Susu Botol. Kdptn!!!!

Family

2012-01-28T12:48:00.001+08:00

Loving them. I am a loving person. I love holiday because that is the only time that I could spend my time wit them

am i a gadget freak?

2012-01-28T02:29:00.000+08:00

I am not (judging from the title) but I enjoy it!

When it comes to knowledge about the latest gadgets, I consider myself advance compared to a regular housewife :P (I'm a housewife? xD !!!!!)

I don’t have to have the best of the new electronics but I want to have a decent kind of (some of) each—a decent smartphone, a decent laptop, a decent tablet, etc. (will get it no matter what!)

And I don’t buy these things just to “have” them.

I really use them and I use them in a way that they become something really beneficial for me to have.

For example, I use my laptop for work related stuff.

My Tab has apps for recipes, children books, emags, ebooks, newspapers, my blog subscriptions, my notes, organizer, Ledger etc.

I use my phone not just for calling but also for checking my emails when I am on the go, as navigation, as camera, etc.

My PSP, i use them when I'm on the go..when there's nothing else to do :P

I can’t name all the uses but believe me when I say I did not waste my money on them.

I didn’t buy them just to have something to flaunt.

Being a bit of a gadget freak means I am always connected to the Internet.

It’s my main library, my resource for all the information I need.

I consider myself “wired” to it and I read the so called “news of the wired” to learn and track the latest gadgetry on the market.

I don’t have to have the latest but it is always good to learn about new technologies.

I'M SURROUNDED BY WIRES!

p/s- I'm not just a MakeUp freak.. I'm so into gadget too..now I know!

foot note : or am i a shopaholic? i cant stand myself from buying things. if i want something and cant get it, i'll keep on dreaming about it. and there she goes...begging for some mercy from Mr Tweety! xD huahuahua. *pampered by mummy n abah :P*

u know...

2012-01-25T00:23:00.001+08:00

U know..

I am obsessed with makeup..i am an addict of em.

U know..

I am a weak person..and i hate being used.

U know..

Sometimes i think that i am too good that others take advantage on me.

U know..

I have no cellphone. The one im using now is mum's.

U know..

This blog is design by my ex student..her name is Francess Deanna.

U know..

I love eating and i fucking hate dieting. O.o?

U know..

I have alergy.. To dust, sweat n hotness..perfect combination!

U know..

I cry easily nowadays.

U know..

U dont know...

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minat.so what?

2012-01-18T21:09:00.001+08:00

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life.

2012-01-05T00:45:00.001+08:00

Complicated?

Hi readers.

U know..im so not used to be called by this name..PUAN AZA.

I really feel weird.

I feel old.

Am i old?

I am only 23year old plus four :-P.

do i look old? Argggghhhhhh!

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adakah anda tahu?

2011-12-29T16:03:00.001+08:00

Did u know that i am supposed to wear that white dress instead of that pink n white dress during my wedding?

Now u know... It was hectic! Jeffie used to sew my bolero within that 15 minutes...he took off all the big pink flowers from that dress and he said..OMG,U LOOK 10 YEARS YOUNGER!...haha..it's really funny where i had to fit in with the situation..stress off course! But still i need to smile!omg! N u know..within that time, i still got the chance to sew the bolero with my dress! N my hair? Not enough time to do it! Nevermind! I am Kim Kardashian!

Well, even though i always get things that i dont like, but i never thought it will happen during my wedding! Adehhhh...tiba2 jadi peminat pink sejati...gilakkkkk...

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2-weeks-old wife :P

2011-12-28T03:57:00.000+08:00

yea..i know...

saya jelita... :P ... harus yakin...haha..

loving the makeup.

after some times,
i finally get the chance to blog again..
i miss u bloggie...and i miss my dear readers..
*kau mampoo org tanya kau bila mau update blog? ketarala blog aku ni bekarat suda :P*

updates?
jyeahh~here we go..

1 - I'M MARRIED!
hell yeah..it's official :) . I’m married! That weekend was magical, fun and full of love. We will never be able to express how thankful we are and how lucky we feel to have friends and family like ours. Many thanks for your love, support and TONS of help on and before our big day. I’ll share a few favorite photos from Saturday later on. I cannot wait to show you professional photos and information on all of our DIY projects .

by the way, i have something to share with all of you. i wrote it 2 days before my actual wedding day =) but didn't publish it. (i did trying to publish it but it went into the draft folder) . just read it =) feel me everyone!

I am getting married this Friday! I am feeling relatively calm, and I am so thankful that I was able to take this entire week off from everything (almost) to tie up all loose ends and prepare. Right now we are putting the finishing touches on everything from ceremony programs to welcome bags. Things are really coming together and it is so exciting to see all of our projects take shape. We have put so much time and energy into the handmade details of this wedding, and I am really scared! i love him..(there were almost zero disagreements during the entire process!).
While I am certainly no expert on weddings, here are are some things that I learned during the wedding planning process.

1. Never, ever look at the 10-day weather forecast. It will change 17 times before your big day, and it will freak you out each and every time. What will be, will be – right?

2. Find balance in your wedding planning adventure. Have brunch with friends, watch a movie, take a walk. Do not lose yourself in Wedding Land. It is a very important day, but Relax. Enjoy.

3. EAT! Do not starve yourself or work out obsessively. Take care of yourself and work towards a goal, but enjoy your life! Your fiance loves YOU for YOU.

4. It is okay to freak out. Allow yourself to melt down once or twice and don’t be too hard on yourself. Wedding planning is definitely stressful. Just remember that you are amazing and strong.

5. Don’t be afraid to put your own spin on your wedding. It is your day, and it doesn’t have to look like every other wedding out there. Make yourself happy – you deserve it!

6. While it is all about you, it’s not really all about you. Listen to your fiance. Love him.

7. Appreciate your guests. They travel from near and far to support you on your big day.

Alright, enough advice. :'( feel like crying...i'm so gonna miss this moment as a single person...but it's time to go one level up. this is life. it's not the end..it's a new beginning. i hope that i could be a good wife for him... i really do.
i'll take this in a positive way..nothing's gonna change..i'll still be the old me with a different tittle...i'll be Puan Aza Evianna....tidakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! huhuhuhuhuhuhu :'O .............

LOL! bongok punya entry la...patutla masuk draft balik2...hahaha..
life after marriage? heheh...next entry!
it's time to sleep now..Mr Tweety is at Sarawak since yesterday..PJJ lah.
what to do....responsibility kan :) .

:')

2011-12-28T02:57:00.000+08:00

twittering.

2011-12-03T11:52:00.001+08:00

Liberty of London (@mynameisabby) has shared a Tweet with you: "SayingsForGirls: She comes off as strong, but maybe she fell asleep crying. She acts like nothing is wrong, but maybe she's just really good at lying." --http://twitter.com/SayingsForGirls/status/142812812085952512

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2011-12-02T08:49:00.001+08:00

MP3 Music Download Crash Report

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jar of hearts :-(

2011-12-02T04:01:00.001+08:00

A wonderful Song from your friend

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2011-12-02T03:53:00.001+08:00

A great Music download tool

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heyyyy...

2011-12-02T01:40:00.001+08:00

A great Music download tool

Nice app peeps!

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hahaahah

2011-11-30T21:39:00.001+08:00

Today sy sgt aktif brrfacebook! Godddddd....fb suda takeover my life today!!! No life suda today....fuhhhhh.........

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a day with shaz.

2011-11-30T00:57:00.001+08:00

Pics were taken at pancake house. Yummy owhhhhh...

Wish to go there again...

Anyone?

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whatever...

2011-11-27T21:38:00.001+08:00

How well do you think that you know me?

I guess not really well huh? :-P

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quality time with my bb..

2011-11-27T13:39:00.001+08:00

B-)

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bored

2011-11-26T12:21:00.001+08:00

What do u think?

Bored with facebook.deactivated dah...

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madness

2011-11-21T20:37:00.001+08:00

I love him.

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2011-11-15T05:06:00.001+08:00

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random

2011-11-14T07:53:00.001+08:00

Love is weird.

Going back to km at 10.gonna drive alone.dont know if i could stand it or not.

Love my new gadget :-! Lol

Cuzzie got married yesterday.not going.got dinner.whatevsss.

Missing some of the students :-!

Getting married soon.

Getting skinny....i hope :-!

Many work to do. So lazy :-!

Wish i could run from everything.....SERIOUSLY :-!

bye.

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birthday.

2011-11-10T06:31:00.001+08:00

it's my birthday today.
thank you Mum for giving birth to me =)
wont be here if not because of you.

after all these years..after so many wishes for each birthday that i had..
i think this year would be different.
i dont wish for anything this year :)
im being grateful with everything around me.
esp. my F&F.
it's just numbers right?

but i wish for everybody's happiness..
GBU everyone!

I AM A 27-YEAR OLD WOMAN!

woman?haha~

okay then,
I'm not a girl...not yet a woman yea =)

:(

2011-10-20T04:12:00.000+08:00

patience within our souls~

2011-10-18T00:48:00.000+08:00

:'(

how should i say this...

Mum is going for an operation this weekend at SMC.

im going back.

i wish i could ask for CRK on monday n tuesday but...

i dont think that i could since Wednesday is Deepavali..

i hope everything will be okay.

now we're waiting for the pathlab report.

im worry :'(

hopefully the doctors will be able to take out the tumor .

patience..please be with us along the journey :'(

Love You Mum :'(

can't wait to call u again tomorrow...

i wish that i could see you everyday n be beside you...

holiday...please come fast...

loveholics

2011-10-16T03:22:00.002+08:00

my dear lovely blog and fellow readers..

how are you all been doing lately? fine i guess? or super busy?

*hold on!*

here i am again blogging after leaving my blog for i-dont-remember how long :)

so..yeah~ updates?

i have few things to write here...

by the way,

have you noticed some changes in my blog?

i've changed the layout...and it's dark..

i know!

didnt like it huh?

well...what to do...i want it to be in black theme since i always update this blog late at night :)

so..im a night blogger..cehwah~

and i've changed the song too!

i love the song u know :'(

i cry when listening to it.LOL. yes..saya jiwang :P

uh~huh~

So here it goes.

Probably one of the most important things for me right now is the fact that I am getting married in approximately 2 months.

This will be an interesting last two months of preparation and pray.

We will see how things go and i will update the site of the impending issues and problems I’m sure I will face.

These issues are all apart of life and I look forward to them in a way,

because it is all apart of moving into another stage in life.

I look forward to the challenges and promises that married life will bring.

My number one hope is that I can be a great wife to my husband :')

Life has a way of sharpening you for the challenges you don’t even know you're going to face yet,

and because of that I am not worried about this new season of life but excited and a little nervous.

Be real.

ehem! I'm getting married! In two-months-plus-one-day to the person God chose for me way before I was even born!

I'll always be beside you until the very end,

wiping all your tears away,

being your best friend.

I'll smile when you smile and feel all the pain you do,

and if you cry a single tear,

I promise I'll cry too.

I guarantee there’ll be tough times,

I guarantee that at some point, one, or both of us is gonna wanna get out of this thing,

but remember to always tell me that you love me

and remember..

your home is in my heart,

forever i want you to stay.

love u b :')

okay~ done with that part.

I am grateful for many things in my life :')

My darling, my friends but the one thing I want to share is.
Who am I Thankful for?
My parents....At 26 I would consider my mother to be probably one of my best friends,

she is one of the few people in my life I can tell anything to.

She has helped me alot in the past few years,

she has always been supportive of my dreams.
My mom rocks!

She kicked cancers ass too :P

She is a breast cancer survivor, in remission for almost 2 years.

I went with her to a few treatments and some of her dr. appointments it was intense seeing all that.

And she beat it!

She is my hero for many reasons including that.

My Dad,

im so proud of him! He worked really hard all of his life.

I love my dad, I was a daddy's girl growing up and I still think of myself as one :) My dad is a good man and not only am I grateful for him,

I respect him.

I am grateful for my parents,

I am grateful for the laughs,

the good times,

learning from the bad times,

what they both taught me,

how they both still are so supportive,

the love,

the kindness,

the great taste in music the passed down to me :P

and just I am grateful to be called their daughter.

Our family is a circle of strength and love…
With every birth and every union the circle grows…
Every joy shared adds more love…
Every crisis faced together
makes the circle grow stronger

-unknown-

love by abby

2011-10-11T19:31:00.001+08:00

im working on something :)

my own masterpiece of mind & heart :)

soon to be revealed.

love,

abby

nerves attack

2011-10-01T01:03:00.002+08:00

It’s been an extraordinary time, filled with hopes as much as fears.

2011-09-16T03:22:00.000+08:00

Honestly, I'm afraid of what i would do to someone if I lose my temper. It scares me more considering I'm actually keeping everything to myself. i try my best to control it, but it feels like something within is forcing me to be violent. i just don't know what to do anymore...i'm slowly becoming a monster...

to whoever did this, i just want to say sorry if i ever hurt you. please do move on . it's no use by keeping on hanging to our pasts. accept the reality as the way it is. what ever i did to you, i'm sorry. i guess i know who you are. 'someone' told me it's you. i'll keep it to myself hoping that you'll change. some people say to me.."ada jugak balasannya tu orang yg buat semua ni"..but for me, it's really not a good thing by wishing others to have bad luck. what i want is..i'm hoping that you'll someday come to me and say that you're sorry for acting like a child. i dont know what comes into your mind at that night until you're not able to think rationally. what ever it is i might say, it's the evil in you who forces you to do it on purpose. if you think that i'm mad, yes...i am mad. by breaking the window of my car, you dont just making me mad, but you have ruined my whole family's raya celebration. every plans for that day being cancelled. going to the police station early in the morning..even though i know they wont do any thing..looking for a new window glass...calling here and there..increasing my phone bill...going to a workshop..it took us the whole day settling all of these...and yeah..i forgot to tell you.. it took me 3 days to clean up all the small pieces of glass that scattered everywhere inside my car...and all of these cost me around RM500++. so maybe i guess you're happy? well, i'm so glad that you did .

2011-08-19T03:03:00.000+08:00

WHAT WILL U FEEL WHEN SOMEONE IS TRYING TO SABOTAGE YOUR WEDDING? IN MY ENTRY BEFORE THIS,I HAVE GOT MENTIONED ABOUT MY CRUEL COUSIN :( . GUESS WHAT..MY WEDDING WILL BE HELD AT THE END OF THIS YEAR...AND MY COUSIN'S SISTER PLAN TO GET MARRIED ON NOVEMBER! THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH THAT...BUT MOST OF OUR FAMILY COME FROM FAR PLACES IN SABAH..SO COMING TO KOTA KINABALU TWICE WITHIN 3 WEEKS IS CONSIDER AS A WASTE OF MONEY...THEY EITHER COME TO MY WEDDING OR HER WEDDING... NOW THEY NEED TO CHOOSE :( AND OFFCOURSE SINCE HERS IS BEFORE MY DATE,MY FAMILY WILL GO TO HERS FIRST...AND MINE?WILL BE LEFT ALONE...SOOO INCONSIDERATE KIND OF PEOPLE!!! IT'S OKAY...MAYBE THEY WILL FEEL HAPPY IF THEY SEE US SUFFER :( CONGRATS MY SO CALLED COUSINS!!!

kak bet..sorry..

2011-08-19T02:52:00.000+08:00

so many things happen lately...i cried twice within these 2 days..yea..i am easily touched :( . im not weak...but im a bit sensitive lately...firstly,i was asked to go to the morning session..i cried because i really dont want to go to the morning session. going to the morning session is the same like going to the hell..luckily kak betty helped me the other day and puan lisa agreed to take fransisca to replace me...then,not long after that, fiona told me that puan lisa didnt want fransisca since she is a new teacher...n she still wants me...i was like...nooooooo...and kak betty helped me once again n guess what...kak betty had been asked to go to the morning session! i feel guilty....and i cry...... so sorry kak bet...

my evil cousin...really evil!!!

2011-08-06T22:55:00.000+08:00

hi readers... i am back again...this will be a very long post...u see, there's a lot of thing that i really want to share with you...something that i need to say out loud but i couldnt. firstly, this entry will be about my private life. even on the first day that i made this blog, i want it to be private. yes..i have a life. i am not someone who writes everything about my problems in my blog or anything like that...NO. but this time...i am a bit stressful and i dont know how to cure it.

you know, i am really sick. sick with what my 1 of my cousin did to my family. i dont know why on earth that she keeps on talking about my family. i was really close with one of her sister. but lately, i just found out that her sister blocked me from facebook :( . to make it worst, my ex-close cousin trusts her sister when her sister told her that my family is a bad family. WTH? her sister even said that my MUM had said something bad about her to others. that isnt true.it is not true at all! why do they have to do that?why do she needs to do that? what will she get? during my engagement day on the other day...some of the sisters came to our house..we welcome them because we have had enough of all these..i was glad because after a long time i got to see their mum again :'( ..after a very long time...but then,back from the kenduri..what i heard from them was..."they invited us because they want us to know that abby's hantaran kahwin is RM20,000"... :'( ... why are they so bad? i want to know...why? every little thing that we do is like a taboo for them. stop talking about my family before i start to hate you again HASLINAWATY BINTI HAJI MARMAYA. you win. you almost make my elder sister separate from her husband just because of your bloody hell mouth. even for your sister EZY FAIRUZULAIHA BINTI HAJI MARMAYA..you dont have to block me from your facebook because who do you think you are? a celebrity? what is it so special about your facebook? your pictures? so what with your pictures? i have seen the real you. bleh~ just because we are not wearing tudung doesnt mean that we're bad. as far as i remember, we never get involve in any of your family's business. we're not like that. we never get jealous of your family. what for? what is so special about your family that we need to be jealous of? money?beauty? that doesnt even last long. rezeki masing2 Tuhan yg beri. proud of it? God can take it anytime He wants it.. tiada apa yg perlu d jeleskan. siapa ba kamu tu? manusia juga..me and my sister never ever want to open up even one story about your family. because it will only break our hearts. I AM A FAMILY PERSON. i really am. maybe i was born to be a protector to my family and i am a very sensitive person. my sister had warned this haslinawaty...the so-called angel by my aunties in tawau...the last time we went to her house was because my sister was really angry about what she had said to others about my sister...she almost ruined my sister's marriage! but God sees & hears ...even she told my aunties that 5 of us attacked her that night, but only we know the truth on what had happened last night...urghhh...i need you more patience...how i wish that i could just end all of this. this is all because this one person...and i will remember this name for being so EVIL to my family. lady, maybe today you're on top..but remember...the wheel spins.

sadly written by,
abby.
daughter of Mr & Mrs Lee.

heyyyyy....pictures!!!

2011-07-29T01:12:00.001+08:00

hey since i cant close my eyes yet..let me just update u guys with some pictures which include my recent activities...credit to nelson for taking such a beautiful pictures =)

on the 24th of July this year,

our school participates in the Disney's My School Rock Dance Competition.

even though we didnt win but i think we enjoy the whole journey!

here are some of the lovely pictures..

Miss Leong Suk Mee is giving some tips on how to express feeling with face expressions =)

Studio Sa'adah..training here for 2 days before the actual Day :D

one of the coolest step..haha

my niece-Shasha really love this Team B.

Team B members from Left-Right :

Amelya,Chen Tze Hao,Faymie,Deviana,Angela & Frescella

final preparation on the costume :)

shasha is on my left holding the PSP..

'i will follow u.......'

i do the makeup for both team..

this is Hao2..he wants me to make him look like a hero..

now~how am I suppose to do that?lol

THE DAY!

SM La Salle..best choreography!

their dance moves are superb!

Go All Saints!

What We Do,We Carry Through!

R-for Rusted!

cheers for my ex-school.

our school-Team B....final pose.

this is Team A- pose during somewhere in the middle of the dance.

the winner- SMK Bahang..really talented dancers!

ahhh..this is just me & Leong Suk Mee..

hey fiona..where are you?

listen with your eyes.

2011-07-15T03:29:00.000+08:00

i hate coffee...
see...i'm up all night ....and i dont think my eyes will ever feel sleepy..not until 6 am in the morning today..i know you know how sucks it is waiting for your eyes to feel tired...damn son~somebody please kill me so that i could get a really nice sleep...i dont need a beauty sleep because that's just so fake...you dont even look beauty when you're sleeping! lol...okay2...i just need enough rest...

The energy and motivation I seemed to have in bucket loads the past few weeks has just completely drained out of me. I don't know whether it's because we've reached that time of the month where we're just waiting on pay day and can't do much of anything except twiddle our thumbs and wait, or whether it's because the sun decided to turn up the thermostat again or what, but if someone could hook me up to some IV energy I would be most greatful!

For the past couple of days I've been absoloutely knackered, some nights I struggle to settle down to sleep but once I'm asleep that's it, I'm out until 10:30 the next morning, and it's taking me an hour just to get up and moving and "human". Up until this week I'd trained myself to get up at 9:15 latest and then I'd be bouncing around doing my thing, couldn't wait to get up to my elbows. It feels like I've totally taken a slide backwards and I don't know why.

I'm eating properly. 3 meals (I went through a period last month where I'd be on only two meals a day, which yes is silly and not at all healthy for anyone but honestly I didn't feel the need for the third) with pleanty of energy full complex carbs and fresh fruit and veg. But I still need to top up with a nice strong caffeinated brew every couple of hours just to keep my eyes open and that just isn't me - the last time I ever relied on caffeine was when I worked night shifts, and I generally don't drink caffeine because it seriously fucks my sleeping patterns up.

Which could explain my difficulty drifting off, but I'm getting loads of sleep when I do drop off.

Still, I'm keeping up with my daily chores, so what progress I've made with my weekly rota is at least not being undone, even if it is basically grinding to a halt. This week is supposed to be bathroom week. I finished that on Monday (I've kept on top of that room over the years at least so it wasn't really too bad to spruce up again). Since I finished that I started on the living room...the computer desk has been converted into a nice desk for, well, anything since it doesn't have our massive moniter, tower, piles of wire etc clunking it all up. The mountain of papers and letters have been sorted and filed or shredded as needed. We just need an actual desk chair now! But anyway, I finished that and since then I've just not felt the energy at all to do anything else. Next week is the actual living room week and I wanted to get a real head start...it's the biggest job and I want it nice in time for my family visiting in August.

* I'm a horrible vain person I will spend at least two hours getting ready for school (And that's not including the time for my hair to behave like models' hairs! :p) *

Anyway, this has really turned into a long, drawn out and energy draining entry hasn't it! We tend to say to our friends when they go through crises, come, cry on my shoulder, get it all out, but don't you think that sometimes we also just need to have a bit of a moan and a complain, even if it's about nothing at all? No? Ah well just me then!

p/s- not satisfy when someone attack you in front of others without knowing the real situation...that's just bad..really bad..i'm not gonna sweat for that kind of small stuff..but...hell yeah..that kind of thing really irritates my ears!...i repeat...MY EARS...only! :P

In other news, I entered one singing competition in this strange town :) . well..it's been 6 years that i havent sing in public and haha ..i did it again just now .. actually i dont want to participate in this kind of competition again but since i'm afraid that this might be the last year i'll be here,so why not? at least,i have a memory of me singing in this Strange Town (note that i named it Strange Town not because of the behaviour of the people, but it's because i play The Sims game when i first posted here, the name of the town in that game is Strange Town) I can simply set myself into it and zone out and get it done. I shall definitely pay more attention to the tension etc this time. Learn from my mistakes!

Sorry for nagging and complaining your ears (or eyes) off, but I'm too tired to actually think for anything interesting to talk about today, and you know, I'm trying my best to behave more like a human everyday...(currently - alienated by my imaginary alien friend..hihi)

I'm an angry bird..kaler hitam!

2011-06-24T02:03:00.001+08:00

I have had the shortest temper ever...as a matter of fact, my new saying has been My give-a-damn is busted. I have been short tempered with myself, Mr Tweety and my Students. I get annoyed at people I don't even know. What is up with that? I used to be in this and I was so caring...but lately, I can't deal with people. I hate being angry and short with people, but I can't seem to get out of this cranky mood. I thought it was a phase or a mood thing, but I have been increasingly annoyed for the last year...thats a long time to be a bitch. :) I am actually very nice to people, but now when they get me annoyed, inside I want to aim darts at their eyes. Have you had experience with this? haha..im just kidding!seriously..im kidding :) i've had handled my bad tempered very well.thanks to the brilliant author of this book- "Dont Sweat Small Stuff'- Richard Carlson. You help me a lot brother :). i quote this from his book..

So many people spend so much of their life energy "sweating the small stuff" that they completely lose touch with the magic and beauty of life.

people always come to me and say " ceria ja c aza ni..mau kawin suda ka?" (u look happy...getting married soon?).. :) well..honestly speaking, it has nothing to do with my wedding thingy (cuz if it does,i'll look really miserable!LOL) , i dont know about the others..but when im in stress, i'll try my best to keep on smiling... and not to sweat the small stuff because for me there is no problem in this world that cannot be settled.isn't it? so, readers..try not to sweat ...

but..sometimes kan...how i wish i could shout like this in class..

"ARGGGHHHH!!!SUDA 8 KALI AKU AJAR PAST TENSE...KENAPA JAWAPAN KO DALAM PRESENT TENSE HAHHHHH??"

so that all the students will react like this.

"atuuukkk teacher....pacahla kapalak utak kami niiii kalo hari2 blajar grammar.."

unfortunately kan, im only able to do like this..

"class, boleh dengar ?yea...teacher punya suara memang ayu...tahap cipannnnn..."

branded stuff

2011-06-20T03:00:00.001+08:00

A conversation, about a certain new pair of shoes, with a certain favourite teacher.
To the best of my memory, which is rusty, because I couldn't stop laughing at the time.

Teacher (or T): Aza, you wear branded shoes ah?!
Anna (or A): These? Yes, I'm forced to wear them!!!
T: FORCED?! To wear THOSE?!
A: YES!!! This school banned me from wearing my highlighter pink sneakers! So I'm like so plain now...
T: The school did not allow your old shoes so, uh, now YOU'RE FORCED to wear THOSE branded ones instead?
A: Yes!
T: Really?!
A: Yes!
T: The school FORCED you to buy those RM300 BRANDED SHOES INSTEAD?
A: They're like not RM300! And they're a present from my mom!
T: Oh really...

HAHA I was just so tickled by it. ~~I wonder, do people think I'm this shallow girl, who adores clothes and big brand names? huhu~~

Okay if you don't know what we were talking about above, I'd describe for you my school shoes when i was in form 6. It's only half gay, because although the material is shiny, with cute holes on them, it's in the simplest, most non-gay colour ever (white) and it's like FLAT. Really, seriously flat. Its laces are white too, and each shoe has this very familiar Nike logo on each side. And although not as gay as I'd love them to be, I do think they're quite pretty, and I will still wear them because my mum gave them to me. =) They're not RM300, by the way. They're approximately RM280.

Anyway, he got me thinking about branded items. I personally do not like branded stuff (especially those screaming with logos), because they take attention away from me. I mean, if I wear nice, branded things, people will be telling me how fancy my clothes look, instead of telling me I look fantastic in my clothes. There's a big difference, you see. Maybe I would rather look nice in simple clothing? After all, people should always be the ones standing out, not their clothes, right?

And maybe I also have an aversion to branded items because of this certain breed of women I see in 1B. There I always see a lot of ladies (with their rich, aging Chinese-y hubbies) clad head-to-toe in expensive stuff STILL looking like trash. It's such a turn-off. (No, foreigners wouldn't really get what I'm talking about here...) Maybe I don't want to be dubbed "gold digger" like them.

BUT after this I also realized I actually have a lot of branded things in my possession. But let me say that I'm not a hypocrite, it's just that people love to give me branded stuff (like seriously), and sometimes I have no choice but to use them. Yes, even those expensive - looking things of mine ..are all gifts, from very special people whom I value far more than the cost of their presents. I wouldn't normally go into those high end shops, really,unless I'm paying for awesome quality and not just the brand logo. but im not saying that all that i owned are gifts from others ..that will be totally lies..lol. i am a shopaholic...i love buying branded stuff from head to toe but that doesnt mean i didnt buy any unbranded stuff...to be clear,i love buying goods with qualities...and most of them come from branded stuff..

And in case you are wondering, no, I am not rich rich. But I'm rich enough.

And I like it that way. =)

Okay, enough about branded stuff =)

holy shyte---an update!

2011-06-07T01:39:00.000+08:00

Yes faithful viewers,

your eyes do not deceive you.

I have updated my blog for the first time in a month or so.

Unfortunately, I couldnt remember much about what had happened these few days :P .

but hey – why lie? You know you’re not going to be missing much!

So.. what have I actually been doing that’s stopped me updating this little blog-type thing? Well sit back, wrap a blanket around you, cosy up…

and I’ll begin.

I was actually bus preparing for this...

it's my engagement day on the 29th of may :D

a simple ceremony attended by closest friends and family.

the big day is soon to come.

lets do hope so yea :D

i was out of my mind since yesterday :D

i really wanted to buy a new gadget for myself.

but unfortunately i didnt buy any gadget.

just some games installed in my psp.

but....

i bought new bags..

a handbag.

and a backpack.

a backpack?hahaha~

yesss....a backpack..

well..im out for travelling almost every week.

and my current bag is not in a good condition anymore.

seriously this is not an excuse! :P

betul ni..... :P :P :P

i saw ani my neighbour in 1 borneo just now.it's quite a long time i havent seen her. i couldnt even recognize her at first. i wonder why did she just walk away without even saying hi to me? i wanted to say hi but she walked so fast! well, she smiled btw :D . and yeah..i saw jovinia my workmate too..she's with her fiance guess..wow..a tall lady for a pretty tall man huh?i saw them walking into Tomei..thinking of buying rings for your wedding guys?hihi...yea yea..need my beauty sleep now..tomorrow is my busy day :DDDDD

soon to be...

2011-05-22T21:14:00.000+08:00

~OFF THE RECORD~

2011-05-19T00:29:00.001+08:00

~OFF THE RECORD~

owh dear.

it's been a month i didnt post any updates here :P

i miss blogging so much.

i miss writing.....and taking pictures too.

sadly i dont have the time for it.

but nevermind..here i am again..trying my best to update my blog :)

owh dear bloggie..

i am taking another one step forward in a few months.

i am so happy.

i could see the happy faces of everybody around me too.

so glad that i have such a caring and loving family :)

days at work...as usual...

busy with the SBOA...hope to finish it before june comes.

(OMG~i dont want to write anything about my work..hehe)

yea~work is work..and it stays at my workplace.

NEVER BRING IT BACK TO MY HOME..OR EVEN HERE!

it's quite bored staying here in marudu.

there's nothing else that i could do.

never went out of this house...except if i want to go to work..

or to the shops..

other than that?

i'll be sitting here...the same place..everyday..

on this bed..

how long will i be here?

it's not that i dont like it here..

i like it here...

the people are nice...my workmates are all good :) (<--goes to the evening session only!)

loving the place.

but...i think i'm losing all my friends ..one by one..

i miss hanging out with them.

i used to have countless friends before but now?

i can count my friends... who usually hangout with me..(after few times cancellation!)

should i go back to where i should belong?

i miss home :(

but i'm afraid if i go back to kk..things will turn out differently.

i'm afraid.

i'm not a super teacher...not yet.

i'm very sure that i'll hear lots of complaints about me ..teaching the students in my new school..GOSH!

so the question is...

STAY?

OR NOT TO STAY?

lets wait until next year :)

yea..i'm planning & starting to make some investments for my future.

i have few things on my mind.

yes..i have owned 1 part of this land below the wind.

future planning?

hmmm...my dad says.."please settle all things one by one"

so..okay abah..1 by 1..

it'll take few years ahead but it's something worth the wait right?

no~no~ i dont want to write it here...

just keep it in my mind... :P

dad is really supportive.

love u abah.

u r the 1 n only dad in this world :)

talking about photography...

yes..i have taken lots of pictures..

edited some of it..putting watermark..and yes..

i took beautiful pictures.

i want to upload it here..in my blog...or my fb..

or even my flickr account..

but..uploading files really pissed me off!

yes..one thing...the files are in big sizes..

i dont like to re-size it because it'll actually downgrade the pictures quality.

so how?

even transferring the files from my memory card to this laptop is also stressing me out.

i think i need new lappy :P

or should i take my old lappy from my jie jie?

hmm....hampeh~

:) good night.

kill me..

2011-04-14T00:03:00.000+08:00

I've been gone for quite sometimes from this blog. Bogged down in the everyday hecticness of life. That and a bit of laziness. I seem to have a lot of trouble with my stick-to-itiveness. I am great with ideas....lousy with follow through. It's high time I got down to the business of growing up and getting serious about what I am doing with my life. And there-in lies the problem. That word "serious". I don't want to be serious. I want to be joyful and fun. I want everyday to be an adventure. I want to take off and do (be) something wonderful. I want to be a writer. But I never write. I actually wonder if I have any talent at all for it. I have loads of ideas floating in my head, but not a lot of motivation to actually write them down. So, I am going to attempt to change this. In order to be a writer I must write every day. EVERY DAY!!! Even if what I write is a bunch of junk, I need to hone this skill. You know what makes me feel really good? Giving. I feel really good when I give generously. I feel even better when I do it anonymously. I must say though, I'm not near as giving as I'd like to be.

patience

2011-03-30T23:34:00.000+08:00

it's been a while.
been happy lately.
loving my workplace.
wishing that i could have the chance to sleep during school.
a bit stress when thinking about 1 cekal.
the students are so stubborn and have no manners at all.
no respect for the teachers..except for the discipline teachers.
i wonder why?
i really wish that i could change class.
and i really hope there will be new english teachers posted to my school.
*sigh*
i dont want to get mad all the time.
maybe this is the reality that i have to face.
maybe this is a test for me...to learn on how to be patience :')
will accept it.
will try my best to change their futures.....

true

2011-03-18T13:22:00.000+08:00

I thought you're my friend
but all i receive is pain everytime
without knowing what's going inside your mind
i trust you the most with closed eyes
shared evrything with zero hesitation of any kind
singing hymns of happiness and cries
consider you as my important buddy of life
they say that i am not right
supposing you have same feeling of my kind
but to my shock and surprise
you're exactly as all advised
moving ahead with little regrets in life

missing u...

2011-03-13T21:10:00.000+08:00

something is missing in my life right now...

i'm missing my baby...Mr Tweety.

he had safely landed in Limbang this evening.

i miss him terribly.

This is probably the hardest thing i have ever done in my life.

i have been thinking lately maybe i should just ........?

i know i should follow my heart…

but my heart is with him so i dont know what to do

HELP!

b...i miss you... :(

i am home.

2011-03-12T07:28:00.001+08:00

dear bloggie, currently im blogging from this very comfy couch of my home here in kf..i wake up early because im already used to this kind of situation.i have been waking up very early these few weeks due to the sports day at bengkongan and not forgetting the sports training at our school. our school wins the MSSD.school holiday starts today.happy i am.but sad too. sigh. talking about yesterday,mE and fiona had gone througH a big flood at KM. though it is not my first time,but im kinda scaReD BecAuse it is fiOna's first time:LOL:she said her car got scratched maybe because of the flood..or maybe because some1's hatred. kasian ko girl.well honestly speaking,she haS been a very good friend to me even though last time during uni i think sHe is sombong(sombong in english please? :P) .and if it is not because of her,i will not be at work on time. reached home on time.reached kk or even km on time n the most important..REACHED KK YESTERDAY AS PLANNED.well; if she refused to go back to KK yesterday,i wont have enough time to meet my bf today..he's moving tomorrow.so fiona, THANK YOU..jasamu tidak terbalas...huhu.ok lah..im going to take my bath.baby, here i come!!!

no more?

2011-03-02T20:06:00.000+08:00

so he's moving to somewhere..
yes..i really feel kinda sad..
i dont want him to go..
but this is for our own future.
i'm losing someone :( ..
there's no more him on my saturdays..
there's no more him during my saturday lunch.
there's no more him as my great partner of shopping :(
there's no more him to fight with me..or to treat me the way i used to.

i'll miss you b..
to get something,we must lose something..
that's what they said...
even though this will take you far from me..
keep in mind that ..
i'll be here waiting for you to come back home :')

i am stressed!

2011-02-19T02:25:00.000+08:00

I feel like I can't write, only because there is so much going on in my mind that I don't even know what to write about at all. Racing thoughts. Not only are they fast and free, but they're just vast and many. I'm involved with stressful emotions and worry and expectation and I know I am hard on myself. I'm stressed about having to explain myself to people. I'm stressed about relationship building. I'm stressed out about my health and what that is going to mean in terms of my future. Anyway, I have a few positive ways of coping with this now, but at this time I have a list of things to do. Things that piled up and needs to get prioritized and I feel like I won't have enough time for everything. That in itself is another stress. I hate having so much to do that I need to create a list. The thing that bothers me the most right now is the state of my bedroom and the laundry mess. Everything is everywhere. Clean clothes, some folded, some crumpled, dirty clothes, some in a basket, some strewn across the floor. How aggravating. Once I get that sorted out things will be better. Who knows how long that will take, and I have things to do that are more important than that. So I wish the house would clean itself. It would really give me a head start. Maybe I should just leave and do some stuff I want to do somewhere else, like in Starbucks..as if we have it here :( . I love it there.I once had a pshychologist that said something real simple to me. It was to have fun in my life. I was like well you don't understand. I have so much to do and get done. Well, what I didnt understand was when I had a balance of fun, the other stuff that needed to be done wasnt so bad to do after I would do something fun . Do some of the things that are fun? My intentions are ambitious but my energy level can be horrible. I don't do laundry now. I have it done since its so horrible to me but no water these few days? I dont know how long I have lived in the city I have . I know for myself it takes me about 2 years to truly adjust to a new place. Will I be just fine here? It really is stressful to live in a new place if you really liked the old one or even if you didnt. Abby, hang in there. It will sort its self out.

RANDOM STUFF ON MY HEAD

2011-02-18T10:52:00.000+08:00

For some reason this month,

I haven’t had the opportunity to blog as much as I would have liked.

Last year, I had so many more things to say each day.

This year, I’m struggling to write even the shortest of blog posts,

mostly because I have nothing to write about

– my social life has pretty much died this month-

I’m glad it’s almost the end of the month,

so I won’t have to think of things to write to fill my daily blogging quota.

It’s hard to say things on a blog when you have absolutely nothing to say.

Some people I know lead extraordinary lives,

and their blogs are what I look forward to every single day.

As for me, my life’s boring.

I eat, sleep, teach, read, do some work and teach some more.

This does not exactly make for some thrilling reading.

One more day, and this will finally be over,

and I won’t have to blog daily any more.

Whilst I enjoy writing occasionally,

you’ve really killed me this month, ABBY.

pictures of the month =P

2011-02-13T18:35:00.001+08:00

my old coins collection

work.

flood in KM

Fiona's beetle.

Fiona's i-dont-know-what.

outing wih yon.

sports day.

the winner for L2

a make-over by me.

Model of SMKKM =P

Foychie helping her friend.

Teacher Nertnie working extra hard

the sumandaks...

penampang mariii...

Sya's new ride.

Miss Syakirah

Ekee in action.

my sayang.

ultraman sokmo.

ekee in school.this was taken during the CNY celebration

in Tadika Datuk Simon Fung.

cute lion!

adik-bradik lion.

ekee.

Ekee & Lorres

Perdana Park :)

grateful

2011-02-02T00:22:00.000+08:00

I need another 2 days of weekend...

On Monday I always feel like I should start a company where people work more efficiently so they can spend more time not working. I feel like we should get atleast 1 more day off or that work days should be 6 hours max. I know it's possible to build a company where people work to live. Weekends are always too short with not enough time to relax but always filled with all the things you should have been doing during the week.

So recap of all the things I got these few days

Chores:

Clean Bathrooms - maybe I'll get to this tonight.
Dieting - Moved to next weekend
Ekee's Haircut - Moved to next weekend
Book for friday night - Moved to this week No money :(
PSP - Going to add some more tomorrow
Send Abah's email - I'm not sure what is wrong with me. Gotta figure this out.

Fun Stuff:

School - escaped from school for two days.
Biking - Too busy cleaning inside.
Hanging out with Yon - always a pleasure!I have the greatest friend ever!!!

Other stuff that I actually did..

Cleaned the kitchen
Cleaned the bedroom
Did tons of Laundry =P

I guess we'll have to forward this list for next weekend...

Alright...Things I'm grateful for

1. I'm grateful for this extra large water bottle from Parkson that will be hydrating me today. It's easy to wash and doesn't have any weird smells or tastes.

2. I'm grateful for my adorable niece & nephew. They are amazing in life and in spirit. I only hope that someday my children (if i got 1..hihi) will learn from them about family.

3. I'm grateful for the wonderful city that I grew up in. It's full of diversity and culture.

4. I'm grateful for all the mushy lovey things in my life, Mr Tweety, my friends..Mimie..Yon... emails and and gifts that people take the time and effort to write, all the sentimental things I've kept from the past. They remind of what important and why we work so hard.

5. I'm grateful for comfortable shoes that make walking splendid. I love to walk, rain or shine, night or day. It brings me peace and appreciation for things and places that help me escape the workplace.

6. I'm grateful for the things that I've been able to cross off my list of food that I want to learn how to make.

7. I'm grateful to Shasha who I wake up to every morning. She totally rocks my world.

Alright now back to reviewing contracts...Wish me luck. I want to get through 2 today..

bongok!

2011-01-24T02:08:00.000+08:00

FYI...I'm not in love with you.
FYI...I love my boyfriend.
FYI...You're just someone that I knew.
FYI...I'm not leaving my boyfriend just because of you.

Yes...I like to talk n chat with you.
but to betray my boyfriend..
that is a silly thing for me to do.

I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND!
and if you dont understand...
I'll spell it for you...
and it spells..F.O.R.E.V.E.R..!

thank you!

hitam!!!!!!

2011-01-20T09:51:00.000+08:00

i have changed my number since last may 2009.
you know..the 1 with triple 0 at the back.
i've been using 2 numbers.
but the other 1 is more active than the other 1.
i've given the number to my other cousin.
so that's why i can still be reach at the other number.
but only by text messages.
the thing here is...
MY COUSIN IS NOW FED-UP ANSWERING ALL THE MESSAGES.
lol

so okay~
today my school is going to have a Sports Day.
you know...the one that will make your skin become darker..
hahaha...(suddenly teringat someone yg panggil adik ipar dia c hitam...haha..miss u lah kak!)
so..yeah...i've prepared all my Sports stuff.
next week I'm going to be one of the coach for all the athletes.
my part is to train all the athletes for Heptatlon and Pentatlon.
yea...yea..whatever.

so CNY planning?
no plan yet.
i dont like planning =P

things around my work place are good..damn good.
no jealousy between all the workmates.
that's the most important thing for me.
because jealousy can ruin all the moods...
it can bring hatred to your heart.
even though you think that you're perfect...
but if you have jealousy,
you will not have your peace.
btw,i love playing around.

miss home so much....as usual...

awkward~

2011-01-17T00:30:00.000+08:00

You know what’s awkward? When you’re on Facebook and you leave a funny comment on someone’s status and no one bothers to comment any longer.

For example, someone posted a funny video link regarding ‘hipsters’ and I posted: “I LOVE this!” underneath. Now, this person who posted the link is just barely a friend of mine. I haven’t seen you in 3 years, but we were close enough to ‘like’ each others statuses. She then replied: “I know. I think we should have one in our city.”

That’s when I thought it would be funny to reply: “Ya, I totally agree. We should have it on _____ street. That’s where all the hispters are!”

And I thought she would agree with my comment, or even like it… but three days later, she didn’t even reply. That made me feel really bad, as if I broke some sort of unmentionable facebook limit. It was like: “Listen bud, we were friends 3 years ago… but I’m not THAT good friends with you.”

So I consulted some of my friends about it and asked if my comment was unwarranted, or just fundamentally unfunny. None of them found it TOO bad to post.

Therefore, this made me realize that there are such things as “Awkward Facebook Moments”.

These awkward moments can include:

1) Posting a funny status and having no one “like” it.

2) “Liking” someone’s semi-embarrasing status. Then no one else bothers to like it and you look like a creep / ass.

3) Commenting on someone’s status and expecting a reply. But no reply comes.

4) Posting a question on someone’s page and they don’t reply.

5) Sending a message to someone and they don’t reply

6) Someone you wish you didn’t hear from again messages you. You don’t want to reply but if you don’t they’ll know that you ignored them.

7) Accidentally adding someone to a message or event.

8 ) Starting a facebook chat with someone you didn’t intend to.

9) Posting a status with a VERY embarrassing spelling mistake.

10) When your mother or a relative adds you on facebook.

11) When someone posts an embarrassing photo of you, but you don’t want to be a nag and ask them to delete it.

These are just a FEW of the awkward moments one can have on Facebook.

So… please tell me: Have YOU had a specific funny awkward facebook moment? OR Can you add something else to this list?

we will miss you.... :'(

2011-01-12T20:35:00.000+08:00

My family got the call to come over to the hospital last week as things were looking very grim.
It was said it was time to say goodbye.
All the brothers and sisters who were able to showed up to have one last moment with him.
He passed away this morning.
While we all kinda knew it was coming as he had been in and out of hospitals for many months it still hurt a lot.
He left behind a wife, daughters, sons, grandsons and grandaughters on whom he was all very close with.
My thoughts are with them.
Even though I am not really close to him, but frankly speaking, I respect him as a father :')
well, everybody does~
kinda sad because he died in this age.
it's too soon but how can you tell if it's your time to go...
I feel very sad and don’t really feel like doing any of the things I should be doing.
I know everyone has felt that way.
He was always full of fun.
That is the one thing I remember about him from the time I was a little girl.
He was always smiling, joking, playing jokes and trying to make everyone smile.
I know for sure he made me smile.

Of course, sometimes he is serious and a bit fierce.

But that never mattered.

Rest in peace, Pak Tua.

You were loved.

And you did make us happy.

Al-Fatihah~

:"(

2011-01-02T21:19:00.002+08:00

mummy ...
I Miss You ~

:P

2011-01-01T21:38:00.000+08:00

Since a post called "Happy New Year" appears now on every second blog, I'm striking and I won't do the same. Of course I wish you the same thing, but you can read it everywhere ;)

I never stuck on new year's resolutions. I'm not able to change myself into a brand new, better person overnight, just because it's the time when we change calendars.

:')

2010-12-27T18:56:00.000+08:00

it is my last 4 days in kk. sad. i dont want to go back to km. i enjoy my life here. surely im going to miss my family . ...hmmmm.. yea..i went to Signature this morning and i had bought some books for my dearly students. i am not sure if i will be the one who is going to take over ety's classes. PHEW..a busyweek i guess?...yea iM not feeling very well. fever N cold.my imune system is noT strong enough lately. I have cold feEt :(. Hmmm...can i sleep with my mum tonight?

last LAZY day

2010-12-26T03:30:00.000+08:00

this couch makes me incredibly lazy.

It was a fight just to get into the shower last night at, uh. 11.30pm.

I was running a little behind schedule.

It's not that I particularly LIKE being lazy.

I like getting stuff done.

However, all I've gotten done yesterday was visiting my aunt at HQE2..

work on my Wonderwall (more coming on that)..

and watch way too many episodes of old America's Next Top Model seasons.

I didn't even make my bed.

Or do anything really worthwhile.

I still have laundry to fold that I should've done yesterday..

along with making myself look halfway presentable for a family gathering later.

Most of my day has been composed of sitting in my bed, fooling around with pictures, playing on facebook, or texting.

I feel very. very. lazy.

But my laziness stops tomorrow!

I'm actually going to do things over break, I've decided.

First of all, movies in bed every night...haha

and while that seems lazy, that will be the least of my laziness.

I'm going to work my butt off in photography this week(like I said, I'm a low profile photographer :) ).

Meaning, I'm going to learn everything I possibly can about my camera,

and the types of pictures I want to take, and the type of editing skills I want to achieve.

I'm not going to lie. I'm obsessed with vintage/hipster photography right now, and I think it'd be awesome to go into that scene for a while, just to see what its like.

Part of me has really decided that one day,

aside from being a mom and wife,

I'd love to have kind of a small, quaint little photography business.

Not necessarily for the money, but for the love of it.

The more pictures I take the more I fall in love with it.

I think wedding photography would be a BLAST(i've took some shots during Ariana's Wedding :) ).

Along with pictures of my own kids and other people's,

along with senior shots, and such. I guess we'll have to see. :

But anyway. My *last* lazy day. Tomorrow. We get down to business.

p/s ~ thinking of ending up my teaching profession.. should i or should not?

here Ariana's Wedding pics from my cam :)

this 1 was taken by the wedding photograper :)

that's all...

bye

phew~

2010-12-17T12:29:00.000+08:00

phewww~
just got back from Tadika Simon Fung to register my nephew Ekee.
wah~ Ekee's going to start his 1st day of school on the 4th next year :') .
hope my sis will take his 1st day of school pictures :D

today i'm not going to visit my sayang...
his mum & dad just came yesterday =) ..
he's okay...
the operation will be on next week tuesday... :')
hope everything goes smoothly...

ok that's all for now...
I'm on a Crash Diet (erm..I mean..CRASHING MY DIET!!!)
hahahaha....
makan time~
bye2~
take care semua!
much love...muaxxx

:( it's broken

2010-12-14T03:11:00.000+08:00

my b was admitted to the hospital last night due to fracture on his leg bones :'(
it was an accident...
he fell from the 1st floor...
cant stop crying...
pity him :'(
hope he'll be fine..soon...
the operation theatres are all full!
b have to wait until there's 1 empty slot for him to be operated.
mesti sakit...kan b?
:'( .............

UNLIKE

2010-12-09T19:27:00.000+08:00

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

*i hate flu!

*i hate feeling dizzy!

*i hate things that didn't work according to plan!

*i hate bitches!and witches!

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!

:'( shooooo~ GO AWAY!

im done?

2010-12-07T21:32:00.000+08:00

HI TO ALL BLOGGERS...HOWS UR DAY TODAY? IM CURRENTLY SITTING ON THIS COUCH WHILE WATCHING HYDRA ON HBO. SORRY FOR TYPING THIS WITH CAPITAL LETTERS AS IF IM MAD BUT IM NOT..IM USING MY CELLPHONE TO TYPE :P ..OH DEAR..BEFORE I FORGOT, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL THE MUSLIMS :) ..HMMM...I CANT PRESS ENTER! SO THIS WILL BE A BIT HARD TO READ..I GUESS?NO? WHATEVSSS...SO MANY PEOPLE GETTING MARRIED DURING THIS SCHOOL HOLIDAY :) . SOON IS ARRIANA'S WEDDING..SIUKKK :P ...BUT I HAVENT BOUGHT ANY DRESS FOR HER SPECIAL DAY..DO I HAVE TO?YESSS!!!IT'S A MUST! HIHI...FIONA..IF YOU READ THIS...I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I AM JEALOUS OF YOU...I REALLY AM..(XPA2..NTI AKU LG MEMBALAS P MLANCONG :P) . FUNNY ME BECAUSE I DIDNT PLAN ANYTHING FOR THIS SCHOOL HOLIDAY.ALL I WANT IS TO REST...SEPUAS2NYA! HIHI... OK..ENOUGH WITH THAT.NEXT, ONE OF MY FRIEND JUST BOUGHT A BMW CAR..BESTKAN! ME?NEW CAR? NOOO...SAYA ORANG MISKIN..I ONLY GOT RM5 IN MY WALLET NOW...HAHAHA (THAT..AFTER BUYING THAT NOT-SO-IMPORTANT THING FOR MYSELF!)..HAHAHA...ATM KAN DEKAT :P . OK LAH...NEED TO ENHANCE MY SKILLS ON SOMETHING..KUNU...

Flickr

2010-12-04T01:31:00.001+08:00

This is a test post from , a fancy photo sharing thing.

OWH NO

2010-12-01T22:46:00.000+08:00

Not many can have a father
Who’s half as great as you.
Others might try, but they fall shy
You’re a top-notch father, it’s true.

So that’s why on your birthday,
I want to make sure you know,
I admire you sincerely and love you dearly,
And those feelings continue to grow.

By Karl and Joanna Fuchs----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
so it's dad's birthday today..my whole family had decided to dine at Circle Le Meridienthe food is not really nice.*bagus lagi makan sana Yummy Chicken...sedap lagi!*haha..whatevs~~~
btw...I WANT TO SAY...I LOVE YOU ABAH...MUAH...YOU'RE THE BEST FATHER IN THE WORLD...

how dare you to put a voodoo spell on him?!

2010-11-30T21:20:00.000+08:00

well hello friends!!

why is change good, you ask?

well! because for me, i like that feeling of newness…

the flow of life and the bubbling and brewing of fresh plans and ideas and goals.

and personal change doesnt have to be an immediate 180.

it can be a few degrees at a time,

slowly tweaking our lives in whatever ways we need so that one day we look back and say,

wow, that wasnt so hard afterall :)

owh yea...readers...

this is just something that keeps playing on my mind..

We are very much concerned about one of our family members who's suddenly changed.

We have been told by various scholars of Islam that this might be an affect of black magic...

which had been practiced by one of this particular individual!

One of the reasons on why these are true is because the person who tries to cure him had told us everything that are true..like for example..

where's she come from....

what's her race..

her type of family..

her background...

and when we check back with her friends..

all of it are true!

OMG~this is waaaaayyyyy too scary for me!

This woman had practiced black magic on him ...

and tricked him into marriage!!!

i bet that she wants to spend her life in a much better state than she had been.

We are afraid that she will settled down with him,

everyone had tried talking to him out of this ...

but because he is under a spell he will just not listen to anyone.

My question is what can we do or recite that can break the black magic spell?

We know that the man who is under the spell will not recite anything to get rid of the magic..

because he thinks that it's all rubbish and he is not under a spell of some sort eventhough we know he is.

What shall we do to break this spellcast and protect him from this evil woman?

OMG~

pity him...he is really a nice man :'(

i wonder why does she even dare to put a spell on him?

what..is it like there is no other man in this world except him?

and how come there are still those who practice black magic nowadays?

it's a modern world...man~~

it's weird...

penaik seri...

mengikat suami...

pemanis..

those are some of the popular black magic stuffs!

i bet those who used that has a really low self-esteem.

what is it for?

do you rather being loved by someone not because who you are..

but because he/she is under your spell?

OMG~

trust in your God!

let everything come your way naturally!

don't force!

wth~

*sigh*

muah!

2010-11-29T17:22:00.000+08:00

hi readers..

hope everyone's doing fine yea :)

so~here i am sitting on this bed while typing this entry :)

it was a very busy day for me since friday :D

went out with Yon..makan...makan...sleep..sleep...jalan..jalan...

i met Caroline n Clarissa yesterday along with Yon :)

i felt very happy..

owh i am so lucky..

even though i dont have everything that i want in this world,

but i dont really mind..im happy..

what's more important than that?

i'd rather stay low..it's better..

i feel relieve :)

after all the ups and down...finally this is my time to get paid off :)

owh yea..i just created a new flicker account :)

for what?

well off course for all the pictures that i've taken..duh~

i am a VERY low profile part-time photographer .LOL.

seriously Yon..if u read this..i am soooo going to buy that new lenses for my camera!

more lenses!

ok gtg!

but b4 that..enjoy this view from my camera :)

pictures from my camera!

2010-11-21T19:34:00.001+08:00

salam to all readers..

phewww...

it's school holiday and yes i have plenty of times to blog =)

i'll upload as many pictures as i want..

yes...i am free...

lol =P

so let's start with the first picture...

ready?

hihi....

THIS IS ME AND MY WORKMATES..

FROM LEFT : MALATI, ME, FLORA, ELLISTA, ETTY,DAYANG,SYAKIRA AND FIONA.

this was taken not so long ago...during our hari raya potluck =)

this is my sister and her husband.

romantic aite...

this is the night when all of us hangout at KKBox..

we reached home at almost 4 am in the morning .hihi.

see....my sleepy face...tak terdaya mau senyum suda tu...

that's Afiz Paschya sitting next to me.

he got a really nice voice..

owh yea..he's an upcoming singer.

he sings in a band called PRINC (with no E) ..

their song?

I dont know what's the tittle

but

their song is the OST for the 6.30pm , TV3 drama..

Seribu Kali Cinta.

Afiz's Uncle and his wife...abang Tawfiq and Kak Zahara...

note that my brother is his bestfriend =)

my sayang...he's in love with japanese food...

kan b?

love that he loves to eat =P

during Aidil Adha..

my family decided to go jalan-jalan around Kudat..

my sister...Shasha the Princess..and Ekee the Ultraman..

mum's the one holding the Umbrella..

in the middle,Kakngah and her husband...feat.Ekee n Shasha.

abah...pointing to I-dont-Know-what.

the Birds..

still....the birds...hihihi...

Ekee and shasha playing with the leaves from the Christmas tree (Christmas tree?hahaha)

xoxo to both of you...

aiseh...he got the time to bath at the Beach..

seriously...the water is very clear as glass...

I'm with the Metroman...

who is finally had became a rockstar...

u should watch this movie...

it's funny =)

shaz..after her nikah ceremony..

you're pretty Shaz...

what a lucky man he is =)

congrats once again...

the lucky man..Firdaus...

the one wearing brown baju melayu is shaz's daddy.

the happy moments...

jojo is not there during the wedding..

i bet it'll be fun if she's with us..

there's 6 of us ...

4 already married...

another 2?

:D :D :D

nurul is holding Dania...

Dania is looking at me...

Shaz and Firdaus...with their happy faces...

wahh..I'm sooo happy for both of you... :')

the groom and the bride...

and at the back..

the groom and bride to be...

owh?really?

yes...i dont mean us...i mean Arriana(Blue shirt) and Albert(Black shirt)

their wedding is next month... 12 December 2010.

ours?

haha... :) soon.

me n shaz...

she's still eating at the time this picture was taken..

hihi...tidak sempat mengunyah...

the pelamin...cant see it from here?

oopsie...sorry...

i was sitting at the back..and this is the only picture that shows the pelamin..

ermm..i was busy talking with my friends...

nice baju ...

when you're pretty,

you dont have to try so hard to show it to others..

kan?

the beauty will naturally comes out...

hey...is this guy taken?

because I think I'm in love with him...

;) love you mystery man..

the mystery man...and me...

after the wedding we decided to go for a date at Starbucks.

hihi...

me...with Ipanema Cake..

not really that nice..but still sedap okay..

and my fav drink...Frapuccino Caramel non-coffee with cream on top!

weee.......

me and Ellista...

inside my car..on the way to Shangri-La Resort.

posing after the dinner...

i performed 1 song that night..

it's supposed to be a duet song..

from me and Mr.Voo ..

but he lied...and it ended up by me singing alone on the stage...

KEJAM!!!

nice or not?

syakira...ellista...me and dayang...

i'm the tallest!

yippie!!!

well...I'm 5 ft 5 inches...

(that includes my 2 inches heels..haha)

so..how's the pictures?

nice kan..kan..kan.....

for this school holiday i didnt plan anything just yet...

not going anywhere...but maybe i'll be one of the SPM exam invigilator

(is that how it spells?LOL..I'm an English teacher!)

and i plan to go to Luanti..Ranau to see all the big Fish there..

and one thing...

I AM SO HAPPY...

NEVER BEEN ANY HAPPIER THAN THIS..

I AM SURROUNDED BY ALL THE GOOD AND GREAT

FAMILY AND FRIENDS...

it's a good year...

hoping for more next year...

when we treat others in a good way,

we'll be treated the same way too...

it's my birthday

2010-11-10T23:54:00.000+08:00

it's my birthday today...
thanx mummy n abah for all the gifts that will stay in me forever..
thanx for giving birth to me :)
i really appreciate all the things that both of you had taught me until i had became a better person today :')
you'll be in my heart forever...
love you mummy..
love you daddy...
thank you.... ;')

p/s: now i miss both of you....

Yes..I want you to read this...

2010-11-02T21:59:00.001+08:00

I MOVED.

It’s really funny knowing that a lot of my offline friends/frenemies are reading this.

Yes...i do hope all of you are doing fine and thank you for once being someone i trust :) .

I have no hard feeling towards all of you...

and I still hope that someday we'll still going to be friends.

Lifes change...so do the people...

I have mine and hoping that soon it'll be yours.

I dont want to be your enemy.

That's not what our religion teaches us.

hate me for as long as you guys want.

it's still funny and scary.

thanx for removing me from your friendlist.

How i wish i could do the same things like u guys did.

But no... I'm not that type of person :)

still i have my own integrity...

I still want to be your friend even if you dont want to.

but... nevermind dear... I think I dont deserve any friends like both of you.

well at least i know who my true friends are .

Thanks to Allah SWT for showing me your true colours :)

Rest In Peace.

Thanks to mummy for the advices :)

Yes mum... I will always keep it in mind...

People who forgive are happier and healthier than those who hold resentments :)

I've often come across this saying and always wondered what it truly meant.

It's not easy to forget and forgive some one.

It's human nature to feel anger towards some one who has caused you harm, either physically or emotionally or both.

We've been sent to this Earth as a test from Him.

Our every breath and every action should be done for the sake of Him.

Everything else that follows is just a mere means of 'existence' to help us pass through this phase of our lives.

yearning for a better life in the hereafter....

ACCORDING TO ME..

2010-10-20T23:08:00.000+08:00

i have great news that i want to share with everybody but not now.
currently im sitting on this bed hoping that soon my eyes will become sleepy.
i miss home so damn much.
i miss mum.
ekee is getting taller each time i see him :).
he's big now...and naughty...
hmm..eja's married...
10.10.10
i did not manage to go back to kampung since i dont have much time to travel back and forth.
it does not matter.
i have other things to do rather than attending her wedding. =P
lucky me because i know i'll be tired if i was there.
well....* i am a part time make-up artist* hahah! but my talent only comes out in front of them..LOL.
yalah tuuu.....kidding..dont take it seriously =P

so today is the 20th...
and this is my third month here.
macam lama pula sudah...atukui~
things at my workplace, so far okay...
i dont have any problems with my officemates.
they're all nice and like to make jokes.
i'll be busy at my workplace soon.
even now im busy with the blue cards.
yargghhh~i am soooo MALAS!
i dont have the mood to finish it all..i dont have much time!kononlah...
okay~so i admit...yes..i am LAZY...but i am not a lazy person.
i get bored easily...like one..two...three...bammm!...LAZY!!!
could someone please help me out with this?
i dont work for money.
i work because i want to give my service to others hoping that others will gain something from me.
money ? it is important...but that is not my number one.
i'll be happier seeing others happy because of me.
dont you feel the same too?
it's not all about me all the time kan...

love me and i'll love u more~ hihi...

shaz is getting married next month..i am sooo happy.
i am sure that she'll be the prettiest girl in KK that time...
what a lucky guy...

*suddenly i laugh alone when i remember my sister told me about someone's wedding yang ala-ala grand but 'kosong'...'kosong' here means...tidak banyak orang pigi...LOL...what a waste of money..kawin tempat grand...but the place is 40% empty?LMAO!!!..and another thing...my sis said..the ceremony didnt follow the protocol. got VIP, but then the VIP sampai sleepy suda..apa dia ingat VIP tu uncle dia ka apa?... funny juga kan...huahuahua* ~EPIC FAILED!!!~

what ever it is...bersederhana sahaja =) .
do things according to your capabilities..
hihihi....

and now i am not capable to teach tomorrow...how's that?
HAHAHAHAHAHAH

3-IN-1

2010-10-01T23:00:00.003+08:00

ok...so first thing first..

WHY SHOULD I REGISTER FOR THAT LOUSY MYIDEAS THINGY?

cant they just make it available for all the teachers?

why should we register for something that already ended?

lousy!lousy!lousy!

the internet connection there is also a lousy one!

What The Fishhh....

--------------------------TALKING TO THE MIRROR---------------------------

Please consider this your first, last and only warning.

You are hereby on notice.

You need to get your shit together.

I’m tired of watching you struggle every day to simply function.

You are better than this.

I know that the past few months have been tough.

I know that you keep a lot bottled up.

I know that most days you feel so full you wonder how you don’t explode.

You are stronger than this.

Pull yourself together and shake out the cobwebs.

Plant your feet on the ground and get your balance back.

Figure out how to move forward instead of in circles.

You are better than this.

----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I have been a little down lately. Somedays it seems as though the weight of the world is bearing down on me. There is no big thing, no real crisis, just lots of little things. Little things that I have ZERO control over. Hurts I can’t heal, pain I can’t ease, problems I can’t solve. I get overwhelmed a lot. I have anxiety and panic attacks.

Sometimes I just go too far inside my own head.

I had to get out of my house the other day. The wee one and I had some time to kill in between appointments so we popped out the stroller and went for a walk through town. I can’t begin to describe how much good it did me. The leaves were still vibrantly colored but just dry enough to be falling around me and rustling up the street. There were nothing but puffy cotton ball clouds in the sky. My dress were just the perfect outfit for the temperature.

As I started to feel the pressure lifting off of me I looked down at the sweet face staring back at me and I was happy. I realized that everything I had been worrying about just wasn’t that important.

Sometimes I worry that I talk about him too much, that I show too many pictures. When I started this blog I did it with the intention not of making money or having a following but of documenting all the little things. I don’t want to look back 5 years from now and realize I can’t remember what our days were like. I want to stay true to myself and be my own person but I’m going to stop being afraid to be the dreaded blogger too.

I LOVE YOU EKEE :')

bingung

2010-09-27T23:30:00.002+08:00

what to write la?ntilah update...im busy ba...huhuhuh...

a weird stalker-friend of US?

2010-09-02T06:12:00.001+08:00

I KNOW I'M LATE...

IT'S BEEN ALMOST A MONTH :P

BUT..

HAPPY 3RD ANNIVERSARY TO MY DEAR BB..

MR TWEETY...

IT'S LATE! BUT I LOVE YOU...STILL :P

so...

when's our wedding? (^_^)'''

kekeke...

shhhhh~~~

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There’s this guy.

I see his leering face everywhere. He’s here & there.

workplace.mobile. It’s really annoying.

I mean, the guy doesn’t scare me or anything.

It’s just…it’s weird.

Then it started getting weirder.

He started sending me stuff in the mail.

First, it was just a couple of jokes, and I can understand that.

If you’re too frightened to approach someone IRL (In Real Life),

sometimes it’s just easier to send 'em that.

But now I’m getting stuff from him at like everyday?every morning?nights?you name it!

I don’t know what he says...sometimes I don’t even open the stuff.

And I mean, that kind of stuff I can deal with.

Doesn’t take much just to toss a bunch of crap in the recycling, right?

I’ll tell you, though.

He’s gone too far.

He started calling me. At home.

You know, and at first, you feel guilty about interrupting him,

but then you figure out that he’s not waiting for you to respond,

and then you figure out that he’s not really talking to you.

He’s just talking. He’s talking and he just assumes you’re listening to him.

And he’s even got his friends who talk about us (me & fiona).

Like, I don’t even KNOW his friends? But whatever.

He talks about how things are changing..and other unimportant stuffs!

Where it counts, if you know what I mean.

So, I mean, according to the Criminal Code of MY LIFE,

I guess you could say he’s stalking me.

But it’s *okay*, because he’s *allowed* to do these things.

He’s not really threatening me…not *really*.

He doesn’t come to my house or anything.

I even know his name. I know what he’s up to, i think.

but still....IT IS weird..hahahhaha.

I’m not making fun of the seriousness of real stalking.

I just thought it was kind of funny when my friend fiona mentioned that....

he had sent her the same things he'd sent to me...wakakakak.

PUNYA PELIK! lol

okay2~

so..he’s not a stalker.

He sends me crap sms-es that talks just about everything...haha~

LIFE on EARTH AS WE KNOW IT WILL END!!!

Like I said, I don’t mean to make fun of the serious business that stalking is.

I’ve had a stalker, and it was incredibly unpleasant.

haha~

ui

2010-08-26T23:07:00.001+08:00

aih no time to update this..tomorrow la..ui

massage~

2010-08-18T11:35:00.000+08:00

dear bloggie~
im writing this entry while waiting for my friend Fiona to fetch me up.
it's not very long since my last entry.
i wish i could update everything but my mind cant think of anything right at the moment.
btw~
happy fasting to all the muslims..
so far~mine is full..as usual..

i went back to KF for almost every week.
last saturday...
i went out with Mr Tweety & Nonoi my cousin.
since we couldnt eat anything like we usually do,
so we just walking and enjoying the sceneries of CP =P
LOL..
owh yea...we went to Warisan Square.
i got my foot massaged at Borneo Spa & Reflexology Centre.
it's in front of the Korean Restarant.
well..i've got problem with my right foot.
sakit :(
and i'm dying like hell if i stand for too long.
the girl who massaged me said,
" here pain? (while pointing to my foot) .sex organ problem "
well..she's a Philippian.
i dont think she understands malay =P
but my point here is...not that..
my point is...i have problem with my sex organ...
which is totally related to my menses problem!
oh my~~~
my menses...please come...and dont make me worry :'(

oopsie~gtg...
update u soon!!!!

ngeh~

2010-08-03T23:27:00.000+08:00

Lately I've been drinking a lot of water.
My work requires me to use my voice a lot.
so far, everything is fine to me.
and so far, i haven't rotate any of my work attire yet :P
yea..i lost 2 kgs for doing nothing.
i didn't feel tired, but my body did. :(
i have foot-ache...the right side..
probably because of my last injury where i've got my ankle sprained :'(
it hurts a lot you know...damn it~
so..okay~here's my complaining part..
I have a really sensitive skin ..
and i dont like the air that I breath here..
It's dusty...smelly..and it's......euwww...~~~
but nevermind..
I'm going to do this anyway~
until when? THAT...i dont know...
*but sometimes i like it here...*
owh...I miss home so much :(

last week,
i went to see the Magistrate.
he's not like what I'm expecting him to be..
(why is he in this?he's not important btw~lol)
okaayyyyy~~~ *rolling eyes*

pfftt~

short!

2010-07-31T11:20:00.000+08:00

i think i am starting to like my new environment...
well...so far...yeah~
ermm...i dont know what the future might bring me to...
hoping for the best..
i know it will all be the best..

gtg...

working...working...working!!!

NEW!NEW!NEW!

2010-07-25T04:02:00.002+08:00

hey~~~

so okay..

I've moved to a new house.

new place, new life…

or is it the same old one wrapped in a jazzy new envelope??

i wonder…life is a constant change and i find it difficult to cope with it all the time.

i'm starting anew this month.

i've got a brand new job that i'm mad crazy excited about,

i've got a new(-ish) place to live,

and i'm determined to have a better 2010 than 2009

shouldn't be too hard,

seeing as 2009 has been one of the worst years of my life...well, at least in the top 5..

i'm going to start writing regularly,

and i'm turning 26 in 11 (which actually rather sucks...i do not want to be 26...23 maybe, but not 26).

this is going to be a good year...even if i have to force it to be good...

Moving stuff was really tiring.

Thanks to Mummy who offered a helping hand.

We went to my new house and my family stayed for lunch.

We had chicken for lunch

Yummy~

I then started to clean my room.

I didn't really clean my window part yet because I was just too exhausted.

But now i think my room is VERY clean now. =P

I shall continue cleaning today after getting some cleaning stuff from the shop :)

I'm not really used to my new house yet.

A total new environment.

I set my alarm at 5.35am but I woke up at 6.25am.

I only slept for about 4 hours.

I used to sleep for more than 8 hours in KF.

Why?

Because it's a bit different here.

Blame the location of my house.

Plus, I'm sleeping facing the window and the curtain is not that light as in KF.

So, I don't think I can sleep in till very late.

Ohhh. Guess what?

Missing KF...

Missing it's BIG shelves,

BIG wardrobe,

drawers,

etc.

But I do not miss the sprinkler there at all.

Hmmmmmph!

Anyway, I shall slowly adapt myself to this new environment.

I'm an adaptable person =)

I'm so gonna get an aircond later.

I'm gonna turn into a BBQ chicken if I don't get one soon :P

Never thought life would take such a turn,

but now I know,

all that happens in life only happens for good.

All??

Really??

Everything in life only happens for good?

Yess it does, but only when something better happens to you.

Until then we crib and cry for the good that our life already posses.

Feels funny at times when I look back at my life.

Every heartbreak...

every obstacle in the career growth have only led me to better.

Then why do I always feel so overtly defeated?

Why do I feel I can’t stand erect again?

It always makes me feel as if the universe has come to a halt and my life to its end.

Like right now I am standing at the crossroads, undecided and lost.

Dont know which way to choose,

where to go?

But as they say,

“this too shall pass”…

this too will..

sooner or later a better will reach me and I will let go the good happily then.

Back to my office, it feels good.

I am trying to adapt to this change.

Trying to fit myself to this new lifestyle.

Trying to smile at every boring moronic faces I meet.

The sound of them speaking assures me the work is in good progress.

Well, at least something to feel happy about – My team is performing well. :P

The emptiness inside me keeps brewing.

A lonely heart cries all the time!!

Overall, I am enjoying my time here .

Life here is so different and I’m getting used to it the more I’m here.

I have found things I like about the culture and also things I don’t like as much..

but am trying to adapt the best I can and learn as much as possible.

I hope you are all having great experiences wherever you may be...

and are soaking in every moment of your time in your respective field.

Take care everyone!